We all collect experiences, beliefs, and stances. Sometimes, we consciously dig to try and figure things out, and other times our beliefs are a collection of what we have been exposed to. They build the foundation that we stand on, and then at certain critical times, those foundations are tested.
A few years ago, I found myself in the children’s ICU, in the small room in the back where you never want to be. My daughter was dying, and in the hours while we sat alone, things continued to get dimmer. Those hours turned out to be God’s gift to me. That beautiful nightmare taught me to walk.
You see, I had said I believed God had plans for us. Plans of heaven. Plans for now. I said I trusted Him. But in those hours, I had to look eternity in the face. I had to say when uncertainty reared its ugly head, “Do I really believe what I have said forever to be true? Can I hand my baby over to my God?”
First, we learn to stand. Then we learn to walk.
I learned to walk that day. I learned to say, “God, I trust You enough that I will hand her over to you.”
These may be days we are learning to stand. In these times of uncertainty, maybe we are considering what we believe. Maybe we are considering what we are putting our trust in. Let’s let these days change us. Let’s ask God to allow them to change us. Let’s ask God to search us and reveal Himself to us.
Have you said you believed? Have you said it for as long as you can remember? Have you said you trust God? Maybe this is the time when you learn to walk.
In the pass, I was handing her over and giving God my control and my trust. In the pass, He showed me how to live, and I learned to walk. It got harder before it got easier, but I would do it again because the God that I heard about became the God that I know. The God that I know became the God that I trust, and the God that I trust became the God that I love and will be the God whose arms I run into when this short period of life is over.
Maybe this is a time when God is giving you the opportunity to pass Him your trust, your control. To place your faith upon a foundation that is solid, certain. We will find certainty in the eyes of our God. Let this time teach you to stand. Let this time teach you how to walk forever.
HLLF,
