Teddy walked into our room fighting back sobs. He’s trying to make it through the night in underwear…and 90% of the time he is making it…but not tonight. Mad, the tears ran down his cheeks and he audibly wailed as I walked him down the hallway holding his little hand.
We cleaned him up and I sat him on my lap. The first thing that came to mind was, “Buddy, you are an underwear kid. I believe in you and you can do this.” His tears quieted and he leaned into me.
I see God do this for my heart. I see Him whisper to me who I am before I feel it myself. “You are brave, my child. There is nothing to fear. You can do this,” even when I don’t believe in my heart that I can.
I hear Him whisper truth even when I am not there yet. God sees who I am becoming and He believes it for me even when I can’t yet believe it myself.
We put his jammies on and when I went to change his sheets they were dry. No this isn’t a Jesus parted the Red Sea miracle story…as I felt the sheets to double check I looked over at Teddy.
“I sleep in Graham’s bed.” Teddy’s sheets were only dry because he had been sleeping in his brother’s bed…Graham’s sheets were not so lucky.
Sweet Graham…he will let you try a million times…and our God will too.
When God looks at you, He sees who you are becoming. He isn’t surprised when you have to start over and try again…but make sure that you do. Reset your trajectory, claim His truth again from the position of power God has given you as His dearly loved child, and proceed.
A verse I have to repeat to myself when I proceed is: “God did not give me a spirit of fear… but of power and love and self discipline.” I’ll say it and even if I don’t feel it at the time, and then proceed.
Sometimes I need my God to tell me what is true and where we are headed when I can’t see it yet myself. Proceed in the image and the truth that is your ultimate reality even if it doesn’t feel that way yet. God sees your potential even when you don’t and He’s ready to help you try a million times until you believe it yourself to be true.
Proceed with your eyes set on your God, He can see who you are becoming.
